BabbleBabble!! BitchBitch!!

Wanderer I am. Never stay at one place. I find refuge in words which keep constantly flowing, changing but also containing and sheltering a trembling soul. Presently when there are a lot of emotions welling up in my heart I cant put my finger on that on single thing, for which i want to cry, cry out loud. not with muffled sobs or snorts but with wails like a child cries his throat out. Is it because the life of the most beloved person was balanced on an edge of a knife again? Or is it because I want be snuggled up close to that most loved and cherished person so that i could at least die in peace? Or because someone close was hurt again? Or was it because i willfully hurt someone who cares for me? I don't know, and maybe I will while away some of my time pondering over it, and still be clueless about this situation. Maybe I'm being too derisive about things. I should take things in my stride and move ahead. But then I have a feeling that we're moving ahead too fast, too briskly to even notice where we faltered. Too maddened with the progressive ensemble we've been betrothed to, that we don't even stop to correct the wrong. The wrongs in us, the wrongs we did to others, and the wrongs we're happily planning to do.
To err is human. We'll say this over and over again till we think we've been purged of our mistakes. But we'll bare our claws to  any other person, who does the same to us. We go about preaching things we never practice, judging people without any credibility for our own eccentrics, and see how optimistic we are that we still believe there will be a better world. That one cozy dream of oblivion we've built for ourselves,we never work towards it. Many reasons mar and distort the path to that dream, many things start adding up on that dream, and ultimately the prime subject of all the hard work is lost in an abyss of  manipulations and failures.

And I keep wandering in this undending maze of vicious circles.